"Last Brief Moments"

I lay here God in so much pain..this blood flowing down my neck..the crimson blood stains..I am lucky to be alive..I am here today and gone tomorrow..and it shows what I have been missing and took all in vain..I am sorry mom and dad for I totally missed the point of this life..it is not a game! I long for my family's love, their warm embraces, and concerned faces.. The Godly love that knows my name..my spirit embedded in their hearts forever..My Sister so preciously wrapping her arms around me saying "are you otay Bitney", her angelic voice that in my mind sang..My little brother looking at me with his warm chocolate eyes (a replica of my mothers) and lifting his hands to me..while he cried..One last laugh with my little brother while we reflected on past memories together like "old times".. My mother and father sitting there waiting for what the doctor would say, praying I would make it through okay.. Now I have them to depend for my every need, for now they will have to provide..I am sorry..I never meant for this to happen..My arm is broken and my ear has about 5 stitches, and my face now swollen beyond recognition..It's now beginning to seep in I know God is holding my hand. The doctors have given me so many medications.. But I still sit here writing and pouring my heart on paper.. My mind just won't seem to settle..This is my turning and breaking point to rid my life of all the ungodly and worldly ties holding me down and clouding my mind..I totaled the truck..I was running 60 miles an hour..I flipped several times(approximately) 410 feet..The first roll busted the glass out of the window..the second roll my head meet the road..I will never forget the flood of people surrounding me..The young lady on her way to her finals..compacting my ear together with flood running free and didn't know me personally..but only a sister in Christ..She even called my parents and I don't even know her name..Her sweet voice and face embedded in my mind..All of the others outreaching to someone in need..The man who's eyes pierced my soul..I asked do you believe in God and he said "Sweetheart, Can You Look Up?" All I could see was the ceiling caved in around me..God has a purpose for my life..I will if given a second opportunity..will "try" to practice what I preach.. I will ever be thankful for everyone, the Lord's guiding angels..I will lift my voice and life to you God..It is in your hands..Let your will be done..And let my purpose be known..My Lord and My Savior forever..AMEN..Jeremiah 29:11... I thank all friends, family,neighbors, and Sisters and Brothers in Christ.. All my love and prayers, Brittney Savannah Hope Mathis