Life

Wow! That pretty much explains me now for so many reasons...I just can't put in words what I feel... But I guess I can try...Have you ever felt like you wanted to freeze time? So, take a moment now and stop what you are doing... Use this time to reflect. Go back to a time when you were at your happiest -where you didn't have a care in the world...Think about it- You were actually free! Now, compare it to what you have now..NO TIME! We now know that the grass is not greener on the other side, it just looked that way! So, quick question to ask yourself..Would you trade what you have now for what you had in the past? I know I would...Life was so much simplier..So innocent...Just learning and not worrying all the time! Sometimes I feel like I am the only one like me..NoOne understands where I come from...good thing...because I feel like right now in my life I am just an object of affection where I am sitting in a crowded room being displayed and all of these people are running after me,staring,pointing fingers(trying to find an easy exit when the going gets tough) and most importantly judging me...But Why? I am just like them on the inside..We all need companionship to help build,motivate, and encourage us to make our stand for God! Nowadays, everyone is caught up in all the worldy pleasures and trying to please the world(and themselves..selfish desires of the flesh) and they care what others think too much..When will we learn just to be ourselves? I always find that when I am myself... Others just bring me down because I don't live up to "their standards" of what a person should be..Well, I will continue to be me(nothing more and nothing less)! This is what I have to offer(The many undiscovered layers of God's transident riches that he has blessed my soul with)! I know God will show me the path to take,so I can live and praise his holy name...Because honestly only he knows what I truely feel..He looks inside of me..And I pray that he will clear my mind and make it as clear and separate as night and day..So my Yes can be Yes and my No can be No! Thanks for reading... I had so much bottled up inside and more..but I have 2 tests to study for and this is getting long...God Bless,A Friend In Christ, Brittney Savannah Hope Mathis