"Roller Coaster Of Emotions"

What a week this has been..A roller coaster of emotions running through me..Some good, some bad, some in between..My thoughts haunt me day and night..I can't seem to get away from them...No matter where or who I turn to..The situations and circumstances of my life only grow bigger... I ask myself why do I let these "little petty" things bother me..I hide them on the inside and I don't let anyone see..I feed them to the flame that consumes all!
(My God,My Lord,My Savior)..He listens and wants us to love him with all our minds,with all our hearts,and with all our souls...I sit in a crowded room full of laughter and "fake" smiles..It is just a temporary hiding ground from the battle that is taking place within...A quick summary woud help.... I am (in general) confused..I don' t know where I am surpose to go in my life..I stand here... And I have two paths to take to choice from..I don't really have a clue as of which I should take..I know what I want..but I don't know if that is for the best..I guess only time will show and tell. If there is one thing that I don't like in my life..it is "Drama"..I don't like the feeling of people playing people against each other! And the worst part is "LIEING"!!! I consider myself an honest person..I don't like when people lie to me..So, out of the same respect... I will not lie to them..Even if the truth hurts, and it changes your friendship..It has to be said and done..I could not live with myself (everyday) knowing that I have to hide my feelings.. and keep them locked and buried deep within my heart and soul..I will express out in the open my views and beliefs...We all.. each as individuals influence others that bounce in and out of our busy, complicated lives... I ask God to give me the strength to be bold and humble enough to accomplish this task that is at hand..I know he is the solid foundation....I need to build upon that..There I will strongly stand!